The Lady and the Captain by Beverly Adam

Author:Beverly Adam
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Publisher: Lachesis Publishing
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

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That evening as Robert played the mandolin for her, she felt restless, knowing that the next day they would be entering English waters. She was excited that they’d soon be uncovering the mysterious relationship between the runaway seaman and Jemima Kaye, but what occupied her thoughts the most was Robert. She smiled as she usually did, watching him play, but she couldn’t stop thinking about how he’d held back from kissing her earlier that day.

She’d sensed the moment he’d withdrawn from her that he’d purposefully held back, behaving nobly, stopping himself from becoming physically intimate with her. But did she want him to do that, to continue to hold back?

Shaking her head, she felt a mounting frustration growing inside her. She desired him. She wanted him to touch her in the intimate manner a man did when he was attracted to a woman. She acknowledged to herself, she craved his touch. She’d enjoyed the feel of his hands on her body. What would it be like if he’d made love to her? She glanced surreptitiously at Robert as he plucked the strings of the mandolin, wondering how those same fingers would feel brushing along her skin. She blushed at her own thoughts.

When she had been betrothed to John, she had given herself to him, knowing that they were to marry, and yearning to experience that special loving that men and women have experienced since time began. Was it wrong for her to want that again? Robert was not her betrothed, so was she behaving like one of those mistresses or dockside strumpets? Nay, she was not. That was not her way. Oh, she had always been a lively and friendly woman, but she had never behaved in an improper manner. She was a wise woman and her work was of an intimate nature, so she had always been careful of her behavior.

What of the memory of her fiancé? Was it wrong for her to want another man’s arms around her? She had loved John, and had greatly cared for him. She had wanted to marry him. And after he died, she had mourned his death. But as a healer she had always understood the fleeting nature of life. Illness and accidents, and yes, the evil of others, could deal a cruel blow. The time they had together could be snuffed out in a moment, so was it wrong for her to want some happiness while it was here in front of her? Sarah recalled the encouraging words of John’s mother—to continue on with her life—to let herself love again . . . and she realized she was ready to move on, ready to love, and she hoped that Robert would be that man.

She began to sway to the music, letting it envelope her, letting the tension from discovering the identity of the ghost and the murder weapon drop away as she sipped her dinner wine. She leaned against him in a companionable manner as he played the instrument, enjoying the music.

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